I couldn't sleep (can't breathe), so I'm reading your LJ.

John has been with many men. Blonde and black hair, short and tall, loud and quiet – they’ve all had two things in common. They’ve all been pretty. And they’ve all been weak.

Whoa! There were so many fucked-up details of John's psyche, but this one got to me the most.

And I do have to say that I didn't equate any of the anonymous bar-sex as semi-rape; it's just that he was less egalitarian than the guys he hooked up with expected and that quid pro quo was definitely NOT in his vocabulary.

I definitely like the way you write, even though OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH. Poor (yes, I'm repeating myself), fucked-up John.